Why can’t things just be easy sometimes? Why are there so many gray areas in life? I understand that infinite choices and possibilities are what make life interesting and different for everyone, but sometimes I wish I didn’t have to make such hard decisions. Sometimes I wish the right decision would jump up and down and make itself known. I have never been in such a confusing, life altering situation.
Two months ago my ex husband made a false CPS claim against my boyfriend and I. The case was unsubstantiated and denied, but changed my life regardless. Being stabbed in the back by someone I was best friends with for ten years was mind blowing. I still have a hard time believing he actually did that. I’ve never been so betrayed before in all my life.
The thought of being nice to my ex or helping him in any way seemed absolutely impossible after all the lies he told CPS and all the unnecessary drama and trauma he caused for me and my children. I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to co-parent successfully with someone I could no longer trust or wanted to be around.
All I can say is the love for my children is greater than the hate/distrust I have for my ex. I want what’s best for my children. Period. I still have hope that the three of us (my ex, my boyfriend, and myself) can be a team and be the best role models we can be for the kids. I hope when my ex gets a new girlfriend she will be a positive addition to our team as well. I hope all the drama and lies are done for good.
My children need a team. They deserve a team.
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