Missing You

Yes, I know you’ve only been gone about a day and a half, but I miss you already. Hell, I missed you the second you got out of my car to board your plane. I knew I was going to miss you immediately and I knew I was going to miss you a lot, but I wasn’t expecting it to be this severe. What have you done to me?

I’m an emotional person. I have been my entire life. My logical side and my emotional side don’t always see eye-to-eye. Logically, I know you’ve only been gone a short while and you’ll be back in a week. Emotionally, it feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and I feel so incomplete. What is wrong with me?

On one hand I feel absolutely pathetic. I miss you so much that it makes me cry. I brought one of your shirts to my apartment just so I had something of yours I could sleep with while you’re gone. If I was 15 years younger maybe I wouldn’t feel so pathetic about it. I feel like I should be able to handle you being gone a week without having to sleep with one of your shirts.

On the other hand, I feel so very lucky and blessed to have someone in my life that I miss so much. To say you are the love of my life is an understatement. I feel like you are my soulmate and I’ve waited all my life to meet you. You are everything I have always wanted in a man. You have been one of the best things to ever happen to me. I feel so fortunate every single day that you’re in my life. You have treated me the way I’ve always wanted to be treated since the first day I met you. You seemed way to good to be true, but you really are just that spectacular. I am the luckiest person in the entire world.

I know you’re having fun and you totally deserve it. I’ll be OK. This is just how I am. Please don’t judge me or think negatively of me. Like I said, I’m an emotional person. I love hard. I miss hard. It is what it is.